I haven't been blogging for a long time. This laziness is going to make me regret one day, or well, many days. My blog is where I keep myself reminded of the happenings in life. But now when there are some memories I wish to dig, there is nothing there.
I have forgotten many happenings in my life that I do want to remember sometimes. And as we know it, I remember many things that I do not really want to remember.
It's new year's eve. Tomorrow will be the beginning of 2011. Not really tomorrow, just in an hour it seems. I don't know. I don't know what to do, as per the picture above. I am not ready for 2011, but does time wait for me? Never ever will be. So I do not have a choice, but to float alongside whatever that is happening.
Nenek has been in hospital for a few days since I am back from KL. With the usual pain. Atok is not feeling well. He is suddenly becoming uzur and it's worrying. I've never really seen him this sick, and behaving weirdly. He has been engaged for a week, tomorrow.
I am feeling lost. I was doing fine last month. But these few days I am collapsing. I am missing him, God knows what exactly I am feeling, which I don't even know. After hearing his voice and getting his smses for these few days, I am back to where I was five months ago.
I tried to be strong. I am still trying to be strong.
Ya Allah, hanya kepadaMu aku berserah.
And Happy 2011 everyone! May it be a blissful year for all. =)
