It is currently the month of October. 2nd October, to be exact. I know I have not blogged for long. But I thought the last I blog was like, atleast, August? But no, it's July. How long ago was that!?!

How have things been going? I thought after the official opening, it will be a breather. But no. PTC ALMOST killed me the other time. What with the headache and all. And that's it when you do last minute stuffs. And, there's the spring cleaning since my PTC was a day before Raya. So there!

So when PTC was done, I wished for a breather. But well well, a wish is wish. We all, or atleast I do know that not all wishes come true. So then there's K2 concert, which I know is just hanging around waiting for me to begin though I keep denying that it's hanging around. So yea, I learn to embrace the existence of the K2 graduation concert. When I started on the K2 concert, it wasn't easy. We practiced and practiced, and, we ended changing 3 storybooks for the K2 concert. Finally, when I thought we had enough, the SNCF performance came about.

And when will it be? It will be tomorrow, at Suntec City, Rock Stadium.

All the best to me and my kids. Darlings, you know that I love you. But I had been harsh.I had been strict. I had been too hard at times, I know. But if I am not, we will not be where we are.

And Nenek is in hospital now. As usual, wrong food and the same pain.

And I just had to see something today. There's this feeling that I could not explain, or describe. I want to cry, but what is it for? (I know I will end up crying to bed. Urgh!). I have let go, or I thought I had. But then, I just don't know.

I hate myself because of this.

I can't wait for my holiday.

I know He has planned something much better for me. And I will wait. And I will embrace my own happiness, one day.

InsyaAllah.

Maybe deep inside, I still do miss you. Us. Memories.