One week of attachment is over today. It has been FIVE days. FIVE days. Time really flies. It seems a long way more I will end it all, and for practicums to arrive. Until someone reminded me that we are only left with FIVE WEEKS of attachments. During this time, there will be the final two practicums. Oh gosh oh gosh. So that means I'm only left with one or two weeks for the upcoming prac and perhaps another three to four weeks of the FINAL practicum, which is really the ultimate. Oh my goodness. How great!
So how was the first week of attachment, you asked? I'm going to admit I initially thought of blogging everyday after attachment to record my, well, feelings and whatever happened for the day. But what do you think? I've been really tired every single day. This week has been really busy. Monday was the first day of attachment, followed by rushing off to JB. Tuesday off to library and getting the stuffs for the birthday celeb today. Wednesday rushed off to school to meet the field supervisor for pre-FP3 briefing. Thursday rushed off to Poly to bring Adlina for her jab. Today was super rushed to Finnie's place for Finnie and Min's surprise birthday celebration.
Ok fine, I have not answered how's my attachment so far. I feel, I think, I'm enjoying it more than I used to. Still feel awkward here and there, well, I have not been in the centre since last year, but I think my host teacher is really good. She can be straightforward, but she cared enough. Alhamdulillah. My kids? Oh well the kids... They're fine. You can't expect a perfect group of students right? And yes, they are adorable, really. I can seriously cry looking at them, and I really mean in a good way. Today, one of my boy was really emotional. He sulked, nearly cried, when we sang one of the National Day song, because his friends did not hugged him and he has noone to hug. And then he emo when he could not ride the tricycle back to school. And then he really cried like nobody;s business when he THINKS his classmate did not put soap while showering. And yes, I was in-charge of showering today, which I'm really used to by now. He cried, and cried, and the boy whom he accused and actually hit went out, and came into the shower with a tissue paper, asking me to wipe the crying boy's tears. OMG! I wanted to cry. You should have seen this cute little boy's face (the one who gave the tissue). And the crying boy actually cried till after shower, and again the other boy took a tissue, and he actually tried to wipe the crying boy's eyes, and was even pushed away harshly. And then he passed me the tissue, urging me to be the one wiping the tears off. I wanted to cry, I tell you!
Ok, even I am emo.
You think being an educator is easy? Especially preschool? They ask you EVERY SINGLE THING. From personal to GK to Academic. Why? What? When? Where? Who? How? Every single thing. And on every single subject, etc etc. I need to catch up on my knowledge of songs, movies, cartoon characters, games, and EVERYTHING! Do you know that all the books in the library, you have to know how to pronounce, and for example, animals, what are their names, where you find them, what they eat, how they sound, EVERYTHING. And even when you watch a movie with them, you need to know the names of every SINGLE thing the eyes can see. And well yes, you just seem to need to know everything. And if you don't know, then find out!
And yes, watch your language, watch your vocabulary, watch how you talk, sit, eat, and practically again yes, every single thing!
I'm glad the celebration today ended well. I have tried my best in planning A-Z for it. Now it's time to focus on FP3 and FP4.
I was "secretly" happy when my field supervisor praised me for everything I have done. How could my draft be perfect? It was meant to be a draft, but since it's perfect, then I won't make changes then. Hahah. Creating, making and seriously setting up the learning centres and conducting lessons is what worries me. Already started a bit on it. No time to waste now.
Monday puasa already. Then Raya. Korea trip has yet to be finalized. So much so much undone.
My current favourite music is listening to the children sing. It's my lullaby. It's what makes me smile so so sincerely, just listening to them sing. I love my kids. For all they are, seriously.
