It's already 10.16pm. Oh no. Am I dragging work already? Truth be told, I am having this 'sickness; with work. And it's not just a saying. For the past week (longer, but it got bad for a week already), I have this bad headache. I know my body needs a break, but I still pushed on. Working for over 12 hours a day on weekdays, going back on Saturday, Sunday and PH. But in the end, I still could not complete on time. How to when 9 and a half hour I have to spend time with the children. I mean, I did my work but they are my first priority. So I stayed back till 11pm yet again on Thursday, last minute preparation before Mak Tiri comes. And yes, Alhamdulillah, I did what I want to, tho not 100% complete, the basics were there.
And I know my body couldn't take it anymore. Thursday, I really do not feel like going work with the pain in the head, but I want to. I have to. So yes, Friday, I was on MC. I saw it coming. And for the first time, I went to a panel doctor. Seriously, I would very much prefer the regular clinic and doctor I visit, though I must pay like 8 times more. I seriously do not mind. I felt worse after seeing the doctor.

Friday, I really put work aside. I felt quite better. Until I tried to do some work on Saturday, and the nausea came back. I could feel the vomit on my chest, my throat, but nothing comes out.

It seems like I really need the 4 days break. I think it'll do me good, or atleast, better. InsyaAllah.

I still have so many things unsettled, and it's making me real sick. Urgh.

Ok, work at 7am tomorrow. I planned to stay yet again, but maximum till 6.30pm. MUST HOLD ON TO THAT, SHIQIN!

I have a life, my personal life. I should learn to detach myself from my work burden and not lug it around 24/7. I do love my job, yes I do. But not to push myself this hard.

To you: I don't know what else to say. Was there me and you? Were you real? Or were you just an imagination which I felt so real of?

I wrote like 2000 words and everything's gone.

Ok, now I feel more sick. Was on MC last Friday. I know my body could not take it anymore, but this is the result of still pushing. Am not feeling much better. But looking forward to 3 days of work only this week, and then the long-awaited holiday. I will make full use of it, this I promise myself. I need it, not only want, the break.

It's already going to 11pm. Urgh. Work at 7am tmr. Planned to stay yet again, but maximum till 6.30pm. MUST HOLD ON TO THAT, SHIQIN!

I need to learn to give myself more personal life. And stop lugging the work burden on my shoulders 24/7.

I love my life, so treasure it now.