It's already 10.16pm. Oh no. Am I dragging work already? Truth be told, I am having this 'sickness; with work. And it's not just a saying. For the past week (longer, but it got bad for a week already), I have this bad headache. I know my body needs a break, but I still pushed on. Working for over 12 hours a day on weekdays, going back on Saturday, Sunday and PH. But in the end, I still could not complete on time. How to when 9 and a half hour I have to spend time with the children. I mean, I did my work but they are my first priority. So I stayed back till 11pm yet again on Thursday, last minute preparation before Mak Tiri comes. And yes, Alhamdulillah, I did what I want to, tho not 100% complete, the basics were there.
And I know my body couldn't take it anymore. Thursday, I really do not feel like going work with the pain in the head, but I want to. I have to. So yes, Friday, I was on MC. I saw it coming. And for the first time, I went to a panel doctor. Seriously, I would very much prefer the regular clinic and doctor I visit, though I must pay like 8 times more. I seriously do not mind. I felt worse after seeing the doctor.

Friday, I really put work aside. I felt quite better. Until I tried to do some work on Saturday, and the nausea came back. I could feel the vomit on my chest, my throat, but nothing comes out.

It seems like I really need the 4 days break. I think it'll do me good, or atleast, better. InsyaAllah.

I still have so many things unsettled, and it's making me real sick. Urgh.

Ok, work at 7am tomorrow. I planned to stay yet again, but maximum till 6.30pm. MUST HOLD ON TO THAT, SHIQIN!

I have a life, my personal life. I should learn to detach myself from my work burden and not lug it around 24/7. I do love my job, yes I do. But not to push myself this hard.

To you: I don't know what else to say. Was there me and you? Were you real? Or were you just an imagination which I felt so real of?