As usual, I will choose the picture which best describes what I want to convey.Ain't it true how things always happen, and as much as we can't, or can I say do not want to accept it, at the end of the day, it already happened, and there will always be a reason behind it. And yes, we have to believe, in ourselves and in Him, having the best for us.
I have not deleted the previous posts, just there under unpublished.
It is not really a new beginning, just that I am on a different path than what it used to be for these few years.
It hasn't been an easy journey, referring to both the years together and the after period. But I was amazed at myself for being so calm about it. I spent a day by myself, hardly talking to anyone, just thinking, and is it necessary to include crying? But in my heart I already knew the answer, my answer.
It was painful, but I feel calm, amazingly, when I let go. I was amazed, really amazed at how I was. I berserah. I believed when he said he still loves me, but on the other hand, I also believe that He wants this of us, and sesungguhnya ada hikmah di sebalik segalanya. InsyaAllah he has the best for us.
Now, I spent most times on school. I spent time with Parents as well, just us 3, going out. Doing a little bit of cleaning since Hari Raya's coming (wait, puasa not yet). Assignments are never ending, so there. But not as if I could always focus on that too. And of course being in the centre with the kids. They are my pain and happiness. Sometimes seeing them pains me, but at other times, they are a joy, really. Such innocence.
Anyways, I do not want to blab so much now. I think I'm going breakfast with the family, before puasa starts. And I am still in two minds about celebrating National Day at Sis's place, since we just went there yesterday.
And well, Happy 45th Birthday, Singapore! You know, I love you. I could not ask for a better place to live in, than you. =)
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