Ku berserah.

More than three months have passed.

I no longer blog as much as I used to. Busy? Well, just plain lazy, I guess. I've been getting back to my love of reading novels. And writing stories. But I am more comfortable doing both in Malay. If you had known me some time back, you will know that I wanted to be a Malay teacher in NIE. But they asked me to finish my A Level first. So I said goodbye to that dream and moved on with Tourism. And now, I am back as a teacher, but an English teacher. But still, I am reading more of Malay novels and writing stories in Malay.

But of course, busy-ness is all about assignments and school now. But Alhamdulillah, this past week is not so stressful as one of the major assignment's submitted. Studio Work for Art Gallery was really relaxing, where we are in our comfort zone within our group, listening to music, chatting and munching away, just doing our artworks. A very-not-creative person like me likes the fact that my lecturer was really encouraging, and so are my friends. Art Exhibition went well, where my group dd a wardrobe-clothes theme, and well yea, everything went well.

A field trip to Little India for Environmental Awareness module on Wed. Hooray! It's been some time since I last went Little India. I guess the last time was the few times I went with him to Mustafa Ctr. Oh well. Anyways, field trip is supposed to be work-based, not just play-based. We still have to come up with a report and discussion and presentation, but my group has planned to take it all in a good way, and of course, food's our biggest agenda. Hahah!

School has been alright. No matter how much pain I am going through, I managed to take everyday as it comes. Of course sometimes these tears still do manage to get themselves out, but I am sure one fine day, I will manage to overcome it all. Sometimes, I feel that I have lesser confidence. Last time, no matter how hard the day was, I know there is someone that will help me and get me through. I am not afraid of anything. Now, when he is gone, I have all types of feelings in me. At other times, I feel like I can overcome everything, since I am going through all this pain.

Ku pasti, ada hikmah di sebalik segalanya. Allah tidak akan menguji hambaNya lebih daripada apa yang kita mampu.

The children told me they love me when I saw them on Tuesday. Those words, hugs and kisses mean the world to me. Such innocence. Cherish what you have now, before everything just go away.

Went out with Sis to town on Tues after centre. Been some time since we spent time out, the two of us. Walking at places I've walked with him hurts. I kept it deep in me, praying I will get over it all soon.

Tomorrow I'm meeting ex-colleagues cum very good friends. I hope it could take away some of this pain.